Everyone has a story. Everyone has a struggle. Everyone has a past. Everyone has a secret. Everyone has regrets.

Let your tears talk.

People aren’t always who they seem. Malnourished relationships attract death and unforgiveness.

Let your tears talk.

Playing cards can be so indicative of your life choices. Full hand, royal flush, bust.

Let your tears talk.

Degrading words make you believe that you ain’t nothing, won’t never amount to nothing, you better not hope to be something.

Let your tears talk.

Selfish acts, insecurities, judgment, heartbreak and death.

Let your tears talk.

You are not invincible and everything is forgivable. Live in peace and find joy within your heart. Be a better person, lead a better life, move on and move up. Don’t let past situations, past circumstances or the past keep you from achieving true happiness. Live everyday like it’s your last, in a spirit of love and forgiveness. Let experiences and situations mold you and make you a better person. Let you tears speak for you. Let your family love you. May everyone remember you and may heaven smile upon you.

Let your tears talk.

Let your tears talk.

Let your tears talk. 

This weekend has been an interesting one. I wonder where I shall begin?

I spent Friday night with a couple if friends, nothing too crazy, just the usual. One club here, another club there and free drinks and shots everywhere. So you’re probably thinking, “She was drunk that night,” and that wasn’t the case. I did have a couple of drinks, but I stopped because I knew I had a long drive home.

Now, the Vegas lifestyle is very different than anything else I have ever experienced. The clubs don’t close until 4 a.m. and everything else is open 24/7. After leaving the club, my friends and I hung out in the casino, played the slots and chatted it up with a few strangers. It was around 6:30 a.m. when we decided to leave. I drove one of my friend’s home, because it wouldn’t have been a wise decision for her to drive. After making sure she got settled, I started making that long, lonely ride back to my apartment in Northwest Vegas (20-25 minutes away).

I could feel myself getting sleepy, but at this point I was two stoplights away from my apartment. I turned the music up and went for it, knowing that I only had about two minutes left to go.

The next thing I remember was waking up to two deployed airbags, a wrecked car and a tilted palm tree. I had fallen asleep behind the wheel of the vehicle and ran into a tree. I jumped out of the car in disbelief and could not believe what I had done. I wasn’t intoxicated, I was sleepy and I’m sure you’re wondering “How did she fall asleep while driving, she’s driving?” and I wish I had an answer for that.

Many people don’t think that it can happen to them, but it can. The police officer told me that if I hadn’t been wearing my seat belt, I would have been ejected from the car and laying dead on the sidewalk. That statement put many things into perspective for me. To think that it could actually happen to you and that death does not discriminate no matter how pretty you are, how intelligent you are or how careful you are, is incredibly disheartening.

Every second since that accident, I’ve been thinking about what could have happened. I could have killed myself and I could have killed someone else all because I had no clue how tired I really was. Knowing that my life could have been gone in that moment changes the way I look at everything and everyone.

Life is too short to live in anger, pain or fear. Anger will consume you, pain will torment you, fear will incapacitate you and all will choke you… to death. I’m not saying that folks won’t get angry or be upset, but how you choose to deal with those emotions and feelings is a true testament to your character. It’s really sad that it took this accident to make me realize how petty everything really is.

I shouldn’t have to come close to dying to realize that disagreements and arguments aren’t worth it in the long run. I love my family and friends and I don’t want to leave them until it’s my time. I refuse to live my life in anger or hate. I refuse to live my life in misery and I refuse to take for granted everything I’ve been given.

As I sit on my couch with a tub of ColdStone ice cream, watching Family Guy, I think about how truly blessed and fortunate I am to have come out of this situation with only bruises and cuts. The Lord works and moves in mysterious ways that you and I will never comprehend, but I know that moving forward, my life will never be the same and I will never be the same.

~B

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My life has changed in these past few months; I graduated from college and that in itself was a huge change. During the time that I’ve spent looking and interviewing and interviewing for a permanent position, some things about life and relationships were revealed to me.

I realized that as people grow and progress, their lives change and unfortunately some of their relationships change. There are two relationships that were very important to me that have unfortunately, changed. I wonder if one of the relationships was by default because there was nowhere else to turn? Or did we really not have the friendship I thought and we both said we did? I’ve learned where your priorities lie and where I stand in your life. Relationships change, friendships change and I’m beginning to think that I spoke too soon in placing you in a higher position in my life. I know what a best friendship is and should look like and I’m unsure if we measure up. I don’t think so,specifically based on your actions, therefore I withdraw my feelings and put them to better use somewhere else.

I completely understand when people are happy and in love, I want everyone in my life to live theirs to the fullest with no regrets and no look-backs. However, I don’t understand forsaking all others for “your man.” Boyfriends are great, they bring laughter, love, and hopefully peace to your life, but you should never forget about or brush to the side, those who have stuck with you throughout each break up, bad fight with mom, or simply sat in silence with you because you didn’t want to be alone. Know yourself so that you don’t end up finding life in your boyfriend. It hurts when people lose the position they once held in your life, but it is just life.

This position is an awkward one for me, because I love these people, but I do believe that actions speak louder than words, always have, always will. Your actions will determine this relationship and your lack thereof will determine its rise or demise as well.

Live a life of happiness in all arenas, but be conscious of who you ignore, lose touch with, or place in the bottom of your phone book, because you may end up losing an amazing friend in the process. Call your friends, text your friends, love your friends. Let them know that you care and despite all of the craziness going on in your life, your friend should be the person you reach out to. I am thankful to know that I have two best friends that will always be there for me and will not hesitate to call whenever they need something. There is nothing like a great friendship. Embrace it, cherish it, and enjoy it.

~B